Our Infinity

All those times when we were small, they seem almost like a moment that’s passed us by. Now I find your smile so easily captivating. I was always the one protecting you. Even in the dark and the rain of a stormy night. But now your wings are so beautifully spread! If we could smile with meaning. If I knew the two of us had merit in the passing seasons. Then surely I’d reach for your hand. But here I am so unsure. Love is something that must appear suddenly, I’ve said. Yet here with you, I find a gentle growing feeling. If you only knew... If we only knew the truth of this friendship. Then I’d understand all these colors I see in your brilliant eyes. Would it be too difficult for you to love me...? Could we find the room in ourselves? Could this spark of light be the ignitor of eternity? All the right questions, but without my missing breaths can I understand? Oh my friend if I could trust this joy, then I’d say I love you right now. Even if it took a lot of courage. From this moment on I’ve left the days of childhood certainty, only to dance with this beautiful, tricky thing. This eternal pure love. This longed for horizon... Just smile again, and let your laugh be the last thing I ever hear. Oh my one true sweetheart, for your glance let me linger...as time begins to write our infinity.

Melody

To understand the meaning of love. To grasp a feeling. To put in words a warmth that envelops all else. If it means meeting any challenge, just let me be by your side. Your essence in my heart is a brilliance I need always. To see you across this room and know these things are not expressed, is to know longing at it's greatest depths. It echoes inside the hollow place of your uncertain feelings for me. I grasp the bitterness of pain, just as I embrace my unending love for you. What would I give to hear the awaited words that you cared the same? In the grip of joy, it is what I reach for. Complete me with the radiance of your heart alone. Like the warmth of a voice, play me the melody that resounds inside you. Yes, with only those two hands cast to the piano before us. Do you, most beloved, see me with the same wrapped joy? How is it that I fell so much in love with you? Is it so impossible to share this...? You and I...? You and I alone..? Though a thousand other choices stand, could you find me to be the only light? As I paced away halfheartedly a sigh escaped my lips, while I inside sing again and again words bitter sweet. "Can he love this heart of mine? Does the thought of it even come to him...?" Yet somewhere a glance at my words became something more. Your dear eyes shifted to gaze at the face you’d become so accustomed to. Through the pages of my soul light seems to spread across your smile. A love you were ignorant to as taken it’s very first breath...

Ocean

How can I weep for the sea? Or how can my tears add to the waves? Shall the infinite harmony pause to comfort me? No... Because somewhere deep the great pillars of wonder continue on. Every steady, ever sure. They know not of the one who loves them, though they have never met in this world. They don’t know of the love. Or of the longing. Yet within themselves they continue to inspire. How can they know? How can I forget? Forget the one single moment we were in this unity. If my heart were free to play in your wonder, than I’m sure I could release this raging pain. Oh but until then my love, let me sit with you for a while. As I can but contemplate your grand beauty. Only my beloved, one day we shall again be held as a gentle piece of harmony. In that day I shall descend down your great pillars, and embrace the fullness of your wonder. But my dear I know with this beauty you did not adorn yourself. Rather it was a gift to me... So let me alone that I may cry of your spender. And ever more praise your grand artist, for the wonder of His hands. Another sun shall raise, I know, until however, let me cry of you my dear ocean. As I wait for the moment my tears are forever washed away into you... My love, oh even now I hear your call... You call as the majestic play about deep in your soul. Oh I shall wait. I shall wait as the song continues on, even as the waves...

Cascade Upward

They fall as if upon broken wings. Is it wrong to reach out for beauty even in a world of perversion? Can anyone find this wonder inside themselves? I think so. Time begins it's crawl downward. If no one were there to lift us up I know nothing would improve. Pulled down against ourselves. As we grasp for a balance without compromise. I am unwilling to move. But so were you. In the big things in the most important things, never will I discuss this. Yet the small feelings hang upon biased judgement. Do beautiful things have to wait for those sullen? If this is so...then I am impatient. Yet like a slap from this fake reality, this twisted fiction, I see the pain raging in their eyes. The gentle twine breaks. So you walk along betraying yourself. Selling your breath to this life's game. However they never were able to buy that heart, beating wildly in your chest. With eyes to the sky you desire to find the color that is not yet. So we will wait. With our arms spread out wide. And our dreams to the fore, longing for something completely undeserved. I will close my heart to the bitter lie that this is reality. It is not... It is not...

Ever After

Like the dove, it's wings embrace winds...

For just a light hint of your voice.

For a touch from your hand.

My love fills, and even a drop falls upon your sweet face.

In the moment of the setting sun, as it drifts away...

Oh how my heart calls out to hold our memory of childhood wishes ever closer.

So I stood ever holding the promised return in my heart.

Even as you walked away...

As my eyes filled with overflowing tears...I kept my love strong.

The hands of time made us distant yet...I know on a spring day you will come back to this place.

Though the chill of fall tore our hands away, I believe the blooms of spring will forever give me the happiness I felt with you.

On a path walked many times I saw a figure...

Rubbing the tears of doubt from my eyes, I ran to embrace you...

Ever after, on a flower lined road.

Art

Reaching outward, touching a star even from the ground.

My hand embraces the cold energy, as my fingers fade away through the light.

It's not about why, because in this moment I know.

For now, wonder of this sort... it'll always be wrapped in tragic pain.

So many bright shining things fill my eyes, and I was sure I wouldn't leave as I came.

That day I lost a false contentment.

In that instance I gained a new reason.

My gaze is so frightened...but how can I learn to smile...when it has no meaning?

If I never extended my arm, then I'd be lost in an empty reverie.

I know that so well...if time had walked even a slightly different path...but it's simply not how I chose.

Understand, if you can find the way.

I don't think you've forgotten, I know you've seen.

Every night...those lights are there, who will reach up and choose to aspire?

As I lay there, a part of me was so broken, yet in my heart I knew it was my very first breath.

It's a joy far too great for my mortal hands, so I close my eyes, weak from the purity.

When I awake tomorrow, my eyes won't gaze in the same way.

And a pain will be there to break me...

But what would that matter?

Because all at once, I see.

I see something that was always there.

Beauty that overpowers my weakness, leaving me breathless.

The caresses of wondrous light.

A gem in total darkness.

A love filling my heart.

These things cannot be said in only words.

I cannot deny the very fabric of my soul.

The art... of my being.